Tuesday, January 31, 2006

the universe in my head

neil talking to the sun

I was thinking, walking with Neil on the Maui shores, about how I move around in my head to different subjects, like "Emily" and "my job" and stuff. And each subject has its own associations and related sensory and informational data. All of which are memories, i.e., relevant to what's in my head, but not relevant to this place at this time.

So I was thinking about how the world according to me is actually contained inside my brain (in what form, I don't know; I think that was an earlier post that never got satisfactorily answered), and my brain is in my head! Like, I already knew that the world as I see it is actually the world according to me, as opposed to you, but I never had thought about the physical location of those ideas. My head! So I am seeing a tree, and not only am I seeing the tree according to my visual and cognitive interpretation, but the tree itself is entirely (physically) separate from that interpretation.

neil with a rainbow

It was a nice musing, because it illustrated how if, at a given time, I shift the way I choose to see or focus on something in my brain (e.g., Do I care about this person? Can I forget this information?), it changes only what I am thinking about at that time anyway. Only the way things are arranged in my head.

I am still working on application. Maybe when I watch the State of the Union address tonight I will first try to erase any preconceived ideas from my mind and give the president a blank slate, although not yelling after 5 minutes may be well beyond my philosophical ken.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

the week in review

today I worked 7.5 hours. I have new insight into the orientation difficulties that plague so many of my patients.

"Neil, did you get a chance to go to the bank?" "It's Sunday, Diana." "Oh yeah." "Did you check the mail already?" "Mrs. Pumpkington, it's Sunday." "Oh yeah." "Today was tough, but at least tomorrow's Tuesday." "No it's not."

Oh yeah.

Yesterday we went to a tai chi workshop aaaaall day. I learned how to respond, not react, and neil observed and kept me company. Tai chi is mostly about harnessing the life force and listening to a bird 100 miles away and yielding if somebody tries to hit you.

Then we went to a barbecue and met a couple of realtors near a really cool portable fire pit. Then we saw Match Point, which was OK. Neil was interested in its angle on the Crime and Punishment story.

Thursday we went to a wake for the spouse of my coworker. We went to their wedding in October. He killed himself and I found it interesting that his casket was open. Also we found it interesting that spirited Christian somebody-died rock (as opposed to Christian death rock, which could be more interesting) was blaring the whole time.

Surreal.

I don't remember what happened earlier than that -- oh yeah, on Weds. we attended and attempted to register for a Final Cut Pro (digital video editing) class at Pima Community College. Alas, the room was bursting with other kids who wanted to do the same, so we'll have to wait. At least we're officially registered at PCC.

west wing is ending and diane lane is only 41.

we're making a wedding blog but it's not ready yet.

i don't think God wants me to work on Sundays anymore.

Anyone who wants to be a marine or a pilot can try this.

bye.

Friday, January 20, 2006

dues to leave my shoes on

does anyone else find this prospect a tad nausea-inducing?

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

sort of

funny. you might also enjoy this if you know what sabermetrics is without having to click here first. update: ok, more links expunged from the bookmarks vault at here npd winter paring expo: m o r e .

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

smell you later

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